I don't know what just happened. One minute I was planning to go start a coven with my friend who has been practicing Wicca for a while now, the next minute I'm a solitary again.

her: i have to talk to you about something
maidendellaluna: sure
maidendellaluna: go ahead
her: i can't practice anymore.  i want to more than anything, but i can't
maidendellaluna: what do you mean?
her: some stuff has happened, and i can't practice wicca anymore
maidendellaluna: do you want to tell me? if you don't want to tell me what "some stuff" is, you don't have to, but i'd like to know
her: i would like to tell you but i can't, people could get in trouble and stuff
her: otherwise i would let you know
maidendellaluna: did something dangerous happen?
maidendellaluna: can you tell me that?
her: not really
maidendellaluna: ok, i just want you to be safe
maidendellaluna: was it your choice to stop or did someone else make you stop?
her: my choice in a way
her: i think i'm going to study everything, take all my beliefs and just go on that. 
maidendellaluna: not do magick or celebrate the sabbats
maidendellaluna: that means your just a pagan now, not a Wiccan
her: i guess
her: but i really don't think you need to do such big things to celebrate sabbats, maybe i'll find my own way to celebrate them
her: like take a walk in nature or something
maidendellaluna: i just wish i knew what to say
maidendellaluna: this is a really big change
her: i know
maidendellaluna: we had so many plans
her: yes, i'm sorry
maidendellaluna: don't be, i want you to follow your own path

And the worse part is I don't know why I'm alone again.

~malory~

I'm currently the Witch in Pagan @ OSN's "Ask A Witch".   I love answering questions, researching and even learning about topics that I wasn't previously familiar with.  I've gotten questions so far like " i want to make herb oils for incent burning ,is it the same as your ointment recipe?" and "I can't find any in depth information on the Faery Tradition that is easy to understand, can you provide any links?".

If any one has any questions out there feel free to go to this site and send me a question!

~malory~

Hey everyone out there in blog land.  In my last entry Electra asked me how you do the Walking with the God/dess meditation.  Meditations in Starkhawks "The Spiral Dance" inspired me to create this meditation.

If any of you have a meditative "place of power" than it will help with this meditation. A place of power is a place in your mind that it totally your own, if can be out side or inside, far away or close by.  Just a place where you feel comfortable and safe.  When you're in that place imagine that you're walking around it and going further into new paths and let your self be open to the God/dess.  Imagine them appearing to you, talk with them and listen.

If any one hasn't read "The Spiral Dance" you should definately consider doing so because its a great book for Wiccans and Pagans alike.

Currently Reading How to Meditate: A Practical Guide (Wisdom Basic Book) By Kathleen McDonald see related

I did the meditation on the 6th chakra today which is the Brow Chakra and this particular meditation made me remember how much I love meditating. I'm making a list on all of the meditation I want to try.

5th, 4th, 3rd, 2nd and 1st chakras
Maiden \
Mother   \ Triple Goddess
Crone     /
Horned God
God King
Sacrificed King
Daily Breathing Meditation (where you focus on breathing)
On the Clarity of the Mind
Walking with the God/dess (This is one of my favorites for they talk to you and you talk with Them)
Body of Light Meditation
Purification of Self Meditation

~Malory~